I saw the psychologist
Jan. 29th, 2024 08:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bucketlistpanicOn Sunday I ran completely out of Reglan, a medication that helps my digestion. I had thought I had another bottle but nope. I ate breakfast without it and my stomach got really bloated and uncomfortable, I tried lying down but had a panic attack. I took a Xanax and it took me about 10 minutes to calm down. I left a message for my doctor early that morning saying I needed a refill, but since it was Sunday, it wasn't going to be filled until the next day. I called my pharmacy and fortunately they gave me an emergency supply. That day we were supposed to visit our friends Lisa and Kurt but their kids got sick so it was cancelled. We went to a hotel and Colin watched the Lions game while I slept. Today I got an iced mocha latte from Dunkin Donuts and it was *really* good. I wish we had a Dunkin in town.
Anyway, I went to the psychologist appointment. He explained to me there wasn't a definitive test for ADHD. I had thought there was. He said there were symptoms from ADHD that overlapped with other problems, like depression and anxiety, making it difficult to diagnose. He asked me some questions and we talked for about an hour and a half, and he said it was clear to him that my major problem right now was not whether or not I have ADHD, but the fact that I am depressed. He recommended cognitive behavioral therapy, and said that he would be happy to work with me. I said I would think about it. I told Colin, and he was on board with me getting therapy, and told me not to worry about the cost or the time it would take and basically to quit feeling like I'm a burden. So, I guess I'll probably start therapy. I thought CBT was just for treating anxiety, but I guess it's supposed to work for depression too? It's hard to imagine forcing myself to be interested and motivated again but we'll see how it goes.
I texted Mom to let her know all of this, and asked how she's doing. She has a sinus infection, so boo! But she only has one week left to go of radiation, so hooray! While Sienna's on a cruise, I'm feeding her pet lizards and the bearded dragon bit me today! But it didn't hurt at all. I was giving her worms and she decided not to wait for me to drop it, so she bit my finger trying to get at the worm. It hurt more being bit by a budgie. Now I know beardie bites don't hurt :) And I put away our Xmas decorations today, so that's something.
Anyway, I went to the psychologist appointment. He explained to me there wasn't a definitive test for ADHD. I had thought there was. He said there were symptoms from ADHD that overlapped with other problems, like depression and anxiety, making it difficult to diagnose. He asked me some questions and we talked for about an hour and a half, and he said it was clear to him that my major problem right now was not whether or not I have ADHD, but the fact that I am depressed. He recommended cognitive behavioral therapy, and said that he would be happy to work with me. I said I would think about it. I told Colin, and he was on board with me getting therapy, and told me not to worry about the cost or the time it would take and basically to quit feeling like I'm a burden. So, I guess I'll probably start therapy. I thought CBT was just for treating anxiety, but I guess it's supposed to work for depression too? It's hard to imagine forcing myself to be interested and motivated again but we'll see how it goes.
I texted Mom to let her know all of this, and asked how she's doing. She has a sinus infection, so boo! But she only has one week left to go of radiation, so hooray! While Sienna's on a cruise, I'm feeding her pet lizards and the bearded dragon bit me today! But it didn't hurt at all. I was giving her worms and she decided not to wait for me to drop it, so she bit my finger trying to get at the worm. It hurt more being bit by a budgie. Now I know beardie bites don't hurt :) And I put away our Xmas decorations today, so that's something.
